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zebra_stripegum, posting in _______feathers @ 4:41pm: gahhhh.
i am in love with tucson.
im definately going to move here in january.
i feel like my grandparents are much less judgmental then my parents and i'll be able to work out a lot more without them watching me, and go running cuz its ALWAYS warm enough  : ).
ALTHOUGH
they definately will make me eat and i'll definaetly feel bad not eating when they cook or if we go out.
but i have my own bathroom and i can always purge. : \
don't want it to have to come to that, i'm sure they'll understand if i want to eat healthy


today i had a tiny salad, a piece of maza with smart balance butter, and some brownie ice cream
i know terrible, but we're not going out for dinner tonight so i can just pick around and purge if i have to.
i'm pretty dizzy right now, not used to the heat, but i really do love it.

brokenxwings_x, posting in proanorexia @ 6:41pm:

So, i took the pregnancy test....
and





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im  Not Pregnant ='[

ana_karen, posting in proanorexia @ 6:34pm: does anyone have skype? its like this free computer to computer phone and message and video downloadable program that allows you to connect with people world wide at no charge. you can hear their voice, see them, or just chat threw messaging. and we can also create a chat that allows more than one person to communicate at the same time by voice, its like three way but liike 20 way hhaha  just as long as you have a microphone to connect into your computer, like my laptop that has a built in microphone and camera. 

i think it would be cool to all communicate threw that in a chatroom... like we would just hear each others voices only, for the people (including myself) that dont want to be "outted" you know what i mean. but i dont know its just a thought <3

lovelythin_x, posting in proanorexia @ 12:29am: Had the worst day ever!!
i went shopping and took my prom dress back cos it does not flatter my fat at all!
 so my parents were pissed, they have been horrible to me alll dayy!! dad made me cry in the shopping center like twice
am sick of the way he talks to my mother!!! ughh!
so shopping center was closing and a i got a prom dress from warehouse nd its not even fancy compared to what other girls are wearing so practically i ffeel shit!!!!!
my tan has gone orange and patchy on my legs!!!

i was doing great on my fast until we came home from shopping and my dad was shouting in my face and yelling at me, nd my mam was pissed off cos i wouldnt eat nd she said that i should do it for her
so i sat and ate a potato some beans and too veggie sausages

:O the day before fucking prom! i ate!!! i can't believe they made me break that fast!
 i hate my family life right now

so basically today i have had aprox 500 cals! ughhhh!!!!
going to gym tomorrow if am in a fit state to show this fucking tan off!!!! argh!

anyways hopefully prom dosnt go as bad i think it is going to be, even tho i know am gonna be the fattest ass there!!! ughh
so  depressing!!

anyways long long post! gonna revise all night for my PE exam tomorrow! cos i havnt done any revision eeekk!

hope everyone is doing good

natasha xxxxxx

getthere23, posting in proanorexia @ 7:30pm: the  new diets going pretty well, down two pound from yesterday.  currently at 122, hopefully i'll be down to 118 by this weekend, and 110 by prom (june 3).  it's a lofty challenge, but i have some strong motivation.

does anyone know how many calories are in a shrimp?  like a jumbo shrimp? 

melissuhh_x3, posting in _______feathers @ 7:26pm: how many calories do you think is in a half size salad with these ingredients...?
-lettuce
-grilled chicken [about a 3 oz. portion]
-bleu cheese crumbles [maybe 1/4 or 1/2 a cup]
-a sprinkling of walnuts
-topped with 2 tbsp. basalmic vinaigrette

this is the half size Apple Chicken Walnut Salad from Applebee's and I couldnt locate the nutrition information. can someone help me?

brokenxwings_x, posting in proanorexia @ 6:18pm:

DAMN IT!!!!!


I think i know why i keep wanting to binge crave things....i think i might be pregnant...i went to Walmart and got a test...i couldnt resist getting a 1.75 quart of icecream and a king size heath bar and eating it all...wtf ....if im not pregnant im shooting myself ( not really )

lollypop_677, posting in proanorexia @ 12:15am:

hey guys well 2morrow i will fast!! i will i will i will!!!! stay strong much love  xxxxxxxxxxxx

sade_xox, posting in proanorexia @ 4:05pm: ...
Fuck this,

I was doing okay,
But lately I have been binging non-stop.
I can't control myself now,
Everyday i just eat more and more and more.
I'm never full,...
I could eat forever and still not be full...
I can't take this anymore,
I'm such a failure, what the fuck is wrong with me?
Where the fuck is all my self control?

I'm just so crazy right now,
If anyone'd be interested in talking/ starting a plan/ w.e
my msn is enya_slaton@hotmail.com .

I just feel like i'm stuck in this rut,
I just feel so depressed and hopeless and dissapointed in myself,
I feel like maybe if i have someone to do this with,
Maybe it will help me to stay motivated more?
idk, but any support would be greatly appreciated.
=(

hope you all had a great day, ss <3

schmetterline, posting in proanorexia @ 1:06am: such a fat pig
i hate me!!!!i just wanna close my eyes and stop feeling my fat body!!!i hate me!!

pr0ve_me_wr0ng, posting in anorexicqueen @ 6:01pm: ( tell me if you see any improvement? )

thinperception, posting in proanorexia @ 6:58pm: Pills
Okay whenever I take anything that increases my energy
(diet pills, caffiene pills, adderall, and clariton but only in excess)
I get soooo paranoid.

My hair tickles my back and I jump up and freak out thinking it was a spider.
I'm just sooo jumpy.
It's weird.
Sometimes nothing even touches me and I just FREAK OUT because I think some roach is crawling on my feet or in my bed.

Anyone else with similar feelings?
Seriously what is going on?

liisa_g, posting in proanorexia @ 3:58pm: also.
i dont  know if anyone would appreciate this
but i know its old,
loving "show your bones" album
haha. i wanna do thaaaat!!

outth3re, posting in proanorexia @ 6:55pm: Green Tea
 So the first time I went into "recovery" my metabolism was still pretty good. Now, it seems like it is non-existent. I have been reluctant to start drinking green tea cause I normally don't like it and I am still nursing a 6 month old...but I found the Lipton one and I actually like it. Anybody think it really works?? My husband is working night shift so I am psyched to actually be able to be on here for awhile....

liisa_g, posting in proanorexia @ 3:54pm: i was just wond ering what peoples boday fat % was.
mines pretty freaking high, actually though, im at 18%
also, perks, does anyone take them?\
do they help you not eat/.
i think if i was feelin good i wouldnt  want to binge
but on a brighter note its gorg out.

xdemolitionx, posting in proanorexia @ 6:42pm:

 So, I met with my psyatrist (Isuckatspellingbtw), who is such an asshole.
(she wrote me the wrong perscription... LOPNGSTORY) anyway..
She was saying she was researching eatingdisorders more, and she knew of someone in my area who was doing a study on eating disordered patients (mostly bulemics) having ADD.
She was considering me for the study. (I would totally LOVe the adderol)

I was just posting this because i noticed alot of people on this sight menioned ADD exc.
I feel i mayyy have it.
But only slightly.
The thing i dont think that people understand is that. 
ED patients might not have ADD,
The reason they have trouble concentrating in class
is because they cant stop THINKING  about FOOD.
dsljfsdlgkjlfg!

 

lovelybones92, posting in proanorexia @ 6:28pm: not ed related. i need advice.
have you ever worked so hard for something, and then decided you don't want it as badly as you thought? my school is built almost on a caste system. if you're in college prep (regualr classes) you're not smart. if you're in honors 2, you're pretty smart and when your in honor's 1, you're golden.  i'm in college prep and have been working my tail off to get moved up. yesterday, my english teacher pulled me out of class and told me how she told them i should be in honors and how i probably will get elected to at the board hearing. now i'm freaking out because i don't want to stress, and i was jsut getting used to everyone in my class.

also, the same thing happened to me romanticly. i was crushing on this boy soo badly and he pulled the rug out underneath me and said he wanted to just be friends after5 months of 'talking'. so finally a couple months later i realize he's a cool guy and always makes me feel good so i can sacrifice my feelings and be friends with him instead. we talk all of the time now. and im not sure if i like him or not. i just get freaked out about commitments.

i should be so happy right now and i'm not. what's wrong with me? 

sammahmed, posting in anorexicqueen @ 3:18pm: Day 1 of my fast and going great
on hour 17 or something? and no hunger yet
nothing has entered my body but straight pure water<3
im really worried about my weight los though
nothings been happing latly although the sclae is going down.
Also my boobs, there not huge but i dont want them to completely disapear
because than people will start questioning me
i wouldnt mind a small decress
but i like my boobs for the most part, sadly i no they must disapear
before any real progress can be made.
i did half an hour on the gazelle today around 200 cals
and imworking toniht so i'll be walking around alot
hopefully at least another 200by tonight
im going for drinks with my friends
i'll praobly just get 1 drink but sip it slowly
so my count wont be to high
no any fruity low cal drinks?

tattoedskinny, posting in proanorexia @ 8:20am: Non-ED Related
can someone explain to me what Corpus Christi is??

yatsniht, posting in proanorexia @ 5:12pm: i always..
feel that people stare at me because of how fat i am...

such a fatty fat ass
and

i'm DYING to try adderall!
is anyone on it? (legal/illegal)

i've always thought that i had ADD...

nyc_girly_girl, posting in proanorexia @ 6:10pm: NOT ED-RELATED
Has anyone ever had a close friend basically say that they are in love with you.

So I was talking to my friend, and I've known him since forever, and I started talking about this guy I like and he started getting all defensive saying how the guy I'm into is a total jerk and all this.
Then he's like "I'd treat you better".
And I was like "What?"
And then started talking about how he's liked me for a while.
And it was so awkward, especially when he said he's kind of in love with me.

Then my phone rang, which happened to be my mom flipping out about why I wasn't home yet, so I gave him like a fast hug and left.
So yea, tomorrow should be really...weird.

And it's like I don't even know if I like him or not, ya know?
I never thought about him like that a lot.
But it's like once he's said he liked me, I kinda thought maybe I did.
But I'm so confused so. Yea. Advice would be helpful=]

angie25, posting in proanorexia @ 11:08pm: help for bulimics

i have a friend who goes to overeaters anonymous and says that it has saved her life.  it works for ana too.
they have meetings all over the world
http://www.oa.org/index.htm
it is based on the 12 step program used in aa

brokenxwings_x, posting in proanorexia @ 5:03pm: OMG
I think these people are completely out of theyre fucking minds!
theres no way you can loose weight eating that crap..look at all the cals and fat grams..wtf? 

http://health.yahoo.com/experts/eatthis/4653/lose-weight-eating-restaurant-foods

showurbonesss, posting in proanorexia @ 3:03pm: yaa...
does anyone else look at themselves in the mirror and see miss piggy?

xxpig_tailsxx, posting in proanorexia @ 10:58pm: Makes me feel crap that ive felt this way for over a year
Yet im really not skinny